Life is what you make it

Dear Diary, 
You used to watch people on the street and in restaurants and think their conversation and broad smiles were evidence that they lived a life much better than yours, not just to mention all your friends or people you knew on your Instagram feed flying off and posing next to the Eiffel Tower or Liberty Statue. You assumed that they were happier than you, smarter than you and worth more than you. All around you was evidence that this could potentially be true: your merger bank account, and your thrifty clothes stacked in your wardrobe. you've always felt like everyone else was doing better than you, felt like the deck was so stacked against you that you would never catch up. 

The younger version of you was always dreamed big with big ideas and ridiculous plans... so what happened? what happened to that young girl who didn't care how she looked or ever stood for anyone else's bullsh*t. Was you unable to make those dreams because of the stories you told yourself, a story that influenced aspects of your life-job, family and social life.  Anyway its 4 am, and here you are again with all these disordered thoughts and your dry toast to keep your hunger quiet, you’re probably looking for an outlet to splurge out all your raw feelings, but what better place than your blog your most personal thing that you've never utilised to the fullest- but here goes oh and make sure you get yourself a nice cuppa of anything with that toast. 

okay, so things have been a bit intense for the past couple of months, it has been a  crazy whirlwind of emotions for you and yep you've been very alone- not that you did mind at times it was the only time you've felt you were not being judged. But here is a question for you, what if you decide to give up the limiting stories you tell yourself, and let the past couple of months be a lesson learned well, which is just not only made you stronger but made you ready? Ready for what you say, well ready to stop writing the ending of the story you edited in the beginning, and learn to take it a day at a time and maybe that could be the story so far. Go seek out all the amazing opportunities waiting for you just grab them to the fullest, and learn to accept and love yourself without any set conditions. Life is what you make it !

So, here's some advice -  You are your own light and should never let anyone including yourself take that away from you despite how unrealistic or stupid it sounds. You are the creator of your choices and just give it a chance to unfold and make it a reality because you can, remember it may not seem an easy path to but will so give a hell of good chapter of life to write about. 

Do your thing girl x